"Instead of 'Harry, you're a wizard', I'd have to go like 'Linny, you're a cat!'"

I've been able to handle the pain of your loss, I don't break down in tears every time I mention your name, I can actually remember you with a smile on my face and that nostalgic feeling of happy memories. I know it's been awhile now, but it still hurts. But I can take it. You were so much to me once. And I loved the hysterical way you laughed, and how you kept saying your eyes were green in the sun when they were clearly brown, the smile you'd always have on your face when you were mocking me, and how you said men's clothing was a better fit for me. That one time we were in your aunt's house and you trew me in the pool fully clothed, and then remembered I suck at swimming and very unnecessarily came to "rescue" me, despite the fact that I was on the short side of the pool.  And then your brother kicked my ass in Mortal Kombat. And that one time I actually cried, so you hugged me until I stopped and you wouldn't let me go... And I can't let you go. And that last memory I have of you... when I was worried about my Science test and you said I'd have 99%, because 100% would be unfair to the other kids, and weeks after you died, I actually had 99 points. It's proof you're still alive. You'll always be. I love you Jake, but I miss you too much to let you rest in peace.