1st term is over and christmas holidays have just begun. School ended with its Christmas Party like always, where I performed with some friends and classmates "Bad Romance" (yeah... no questions) and "Eye of the Tiger". Usually today is very happy, finally school is over and we get a break!! Also, Christmas is almost here, but I just feel down. Really down. It feels almost as if I'm leaving school for good, considering that after this school year, I'll be going to a new school for the first time. 10 years is a lot of time to spend on the same place, so I feel really sad knowing I'm leaving that place. I have to admit its also pretty scary, even thou I'm one of the people that says that they "can't wait to leave that darn place". I'm definitly not the type of girl that cries easily, I don't usually cry in goodbyes or in movies, but I found myself tearing up thinking about this. I don't want the last day of school to come. And it's just a few months away. I know there are people who make my life hard there. But won't it just be the same elsewhere? Won't asshats still be asshats and bullies still be bullies? I've hated being here, crying silently about so many things I was too afraid to tell my family but it's where I made almost all of my friends, and where they betrayed and left me, where I had my romances and heartbreaks, where I cried and where I smiled, it's where someone was there for me or when I was there for someone, it's where I grew up and saw others grow up, it's where I got disapointed on how someone turned out or not, it's where I feel alone and where I feel like part of something. Guess I'm just feeling lonely. Today was so much fun :)Oh, and this doesn't mean I like maths or french class, god, I hate french.
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I know it's really crappy and unhelpful when older people keep blabbing about their own experience and talking as know-it-alls, but I just wanted to tell you that every time I think about my school time, the only memories I have are from the 10th-12th grade. And then, of course, from university, but that's an entirely different story. I do remember being really sad about leaving my 9th grade friends (I also moved schools) but somehow all those years lost clear picture. You still have two terms to go out of three. Just enjoy to the most. =)
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